It is a lovely Friday. Each day is an adventure waiting to see what side effect will pop up today. Depending upon side effects for life due to radiation cancer treatments, life is a daily adventure.
Today so far so good. I have to check my weight every month after my 3rd cancer. When weight gets too low, my kidneys and liver slow down, as it then begins the process of less function. It takes time learning the process in functioning body parts.
Slowing building my health is the main goal. As I build the 4 quadrants in nutrition this creates the 4 quadrants in personality. This is very critical in health. Making the process in health in fun is a perfect particle to enjoying what I create.
Part of the package in this fun is the challenges that change me. If no challenge then no fun. Psychologically, the story in love, creates a different team of existent in balance. As the story always goes and you can hear this through music constantly.
Story goes – boy sees girl, boy chases girl, boy gets girl, then boy doesn’t know what to do with girl. Basically, the challenge of the chase is over. Psychologically, built with in the DNA in testosterone creates a path in challenges. Learning how to conquer those challenges in the subconscious, will change the path in behavior.
To me creating my path and conquering the challenges that feel the need to invade my spaces, just means I must learn a new skill. The skill in learning to master one moment in time. This takes many years in self devotion in conquering self.
In martial arts a co person goes to a dojo and has a teacher called a sensei. With many years in training they become a master. When a student goes to a dojo the teacher is the master to teach the student how to master.
With much discipline I have learned to master many things in life. This starts with emotions. When boys for example have not learned to master their emotions, their pursuits in life will fall apart. Which in turn shortens relationships. psychologically they feel there is no challenge left.
Challenges start in heart of love. Men and women have testosterone. This is yang. Yin and yang dominate personality. Just depends on what you let dominate you.
I create my life, life doesn’t dominate me. I have learned the art of becoming a master, through many facets in my life. One of my goal is to get back into strength training. That takes a lot of discipline during healing. My major goal in health is if I don’t have discipline then I can’t breathe and swallow. It’s a lot of work, however I create games with it.
Today I’m finally gaining weight. I went from 165 pounds to 104 pounds. I have been building back. Now I’m 118 pounds. My goal is 125 pounds. Before cancer I walked 7 to 11 miles a day. After cancer I was lucky to walk 1/2 block. That takes energy I don’t have. I burning energy not fat because I have no body fat. I’m slowly build my health back.
While I use prescription machines daily to help with breathing and swallowing, I kick butt with monsters and dragons. I get my testosterone in conquering challenges monsters and dragons. I play two different games while using my machines, to help me forget about the boring stuff.
I breed and fight monsters a dragons. I became a gamer during cancer to help forget about the pain in my head. The cancer was eating a bone in my head that was very painful. The more pain I had the more my testosterone conquered kicking mister and dragon butts!!
Basically, I have been a gamer for 10 years and they are becoming stronger with each passing day. Spending a hour a day helps to release tension build up. I have never and will never spend money on a game, it’s only for fun.
Progress in weight and gaming create a unique blend, in doing things you have to while having fun.
Blessing from Reverend, Dr., Lewis.
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